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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-01-31 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
Merle's hunch is right; it does, indeed, get on her nerves. He has an uncanny skill for it, damn him. She liked to think herself unflappable, usually. No one's gotten under her skin this often since her whole family died, and there's a comparison nobody wants. His hair isn't nearly the right color, even if he is, probably, ugly enough to fit in a group photo. His smile is certainly the right kind of cruel.

They see-saw into a pothole, and the engine makes a sound that isn't quite purring. Joan groans.

"You gonna tell me about it before or after I get the special tour?" She says. Her eyes are carefully on the road, though that does nothing to hide her expression, generally displeased, or her tone, generally matching. "You know, the gunpoint tour."

She's not dropping that. It can't be denied, and it's something Merle apparently has no anxiety over. She can harp and grouse over it without fear of fatal retribution, which is good, because meekly accepting it would be just as bad. Shit, that might kill her.
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-01-31 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah," she says, rolling her eyes in the rear view mirror, "and the second I touch it, you shoot me. Mother Theresa'd be proud as shit."

She moves the car to the center of the road, avoiding a gaggle of undead lunatics clawing at the sound of their talkative motor. This hunk of junk will get them a few miles strong, to Fairyland or Woodbury or wherever, but it'd need more care to get much farther. Joan had been intending to put in the effort, before the ghost of jury duty past had shown up.

"Oh, so you're not giving the tour?" Her smile is a little hard around the edges. "But you're so friendly."
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-01 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
That gets the tension right back into her shoulders. She was trying to distract herself, she realizes. Trying to forget about the horrible death she's driving herself toward. What a fucking idiot she is, Christ. It'd be a miracle she was still alive, if she didn't know exactly how she'd gotten this far. Was she really paying back her continued existence with these clowntown fuckups?

Her tone is a bit lower, a bit more wary, but she refuses to be entirely scared. Not while she's in front of this asshole. "But lemme guess," she says, "you're not gonna tell me shit."
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-01 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
Joan shakes her head, eyes briefly rolling upward. "The poor-pitiful-me thing doesn't work when you're the one with the gun." And about a hundred pounds advantage in a fistfight. Lucky for Joan, she fights to have fought, not to win.

"Lying wouldn't get you anything," she says after a moment. She wants him to be lying, it'd back up her low opinion of the scuzzy asshole, but when she looks at it with the rough, raw logic Luke had valued, she can see the futility of it.
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-01 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
Joan looks sidelong at Merle through the rear view, studying his lumpy profile. He reminds her of the kind of men her father hung out with, the kind of person her father occasionally thought he was. Merle has proven, to Joan's own fear and shame, that he's much smarter than her father ever was, and a lot more cunning. A lot more cruel. Could Peter Dority have turned his gun on a kid caught out alone? Maybe if there was something to steal, but never for as long a haul as this. No, Merle has the casual cruelty of her father, but he also has something deeper and meaner.

Which is all a lot of pretty words for something more simple than it feels. Like it or not, simply by the virtue of lowest common denominators, Merle Dixon is the key to Fairyland.

"Why d'you live there?"
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-10 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
It's a more earnest answer than Joan was expecting. That, more than anything, unsettles her. The idea of him as a person, giving her an honest answer and not more bottom line bullshit- well. She doesn't know what to do with it.

She keeps watching him out of the corner of her eye.

"How'd it happen?" She doesn't think she'll get a real answer, but she's curious to know what he'll do when he's asked so directly. Probably hit her. The last time that happened while she was driving a car, the world hadn't ended. The more things change...
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-10 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
Something about that answer feels right. The desperate violence of it-- you don't chop off your dominant hand if you've got other options-- seems like the sort of thing she'd approve of. She does, she realizes, approve of it. It's a strange, distant realization. She never expected to approve of him. She's pretty sure she never approved of her father, or her stupid brothers.

She feels unsettled with herself, a highly unwelcome sensation when she was so sure, before.

"Shit," she mutters. "How long's it been?"
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-10 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
Joan is well-versed in catching the signs of anger rising in older men. Some part of her tenses, preparing for the next stages. Her foot hovers over the break, because she won't be able to see, but she can't stop the car now, or she'll give up her chance to strike back, and end up defending, uselessly cornered before she's been pinned down. She waits, and the cues rise and fall. His anger doesn't extend to her.

She's not sure how she feels about that, either. But it's sharpened her focus, at least; the little rush of adrenaline makes her mind move quicker. She sets aside the philosophical concerns she was childishly chewing at-- could she ever be that angry at someone for hurting her? Luke, sure, but her? If it was family, maybe, but if it wasn't? And who's to say whoever chained Merle up wasn't family? That's the kind of personal stuff you keep between relatives-- and focus more on her driving. She angles the rustbucket around a larger group of loons, probably on their way to herd up with the cluster from earlier.

Whatever the truth of Merle's story is, she decides she doesn't want to know any more. Not now, anyway. It's not that his tales are gruesome. It's that they aren't.

"And now you round up stray orphans out of the kindness of your heart?"
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-15 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm not sticking around," Joan says immediately. That's important to say, not for him, not even for herself. It's just a declaration of intent. She won't be broken by ease, and she won't hide her aims. She won't be broken.

But his question's a good one. She doesn't say the first thought that pops into her head, I'm gonna get the hell away from you. There's just no point in antagonizing him. She can tell he's not the kind of person to hit when he could do something worse, and she hasn't gotten to worse yet, but it's probably either fatal, or the kind of thing you wish was.

(If she was a good daughter, she'd say, I'd find out of mom's still alive, but she's not, so she doesn't.)

"And I dunno," she says, "but whatever it is, I'll be in charge of it."
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-18 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
It annoys her, but in an unexpected way. Merle is a dangerous man, but Joan can deal with dangerous men. The fact that he ascribes, in some way, to her personal philosophy just backs that up. She may not like it, but she belongs, in her mind, to the same breed of creature he is. It fits, because she never liked who she was anyway.

But what rankles is the inconsistency. If he cares about living under his own banner, making his own life truly his, then that means... she'd guessed he was comfortable in the kind of place they're going, but she'd hoped to Christ Almighty he wasn't in charge of it.

She tries to keep a note of fear from her voice, covering her tone in disdain instead: "Don't tell me," she says, "you're King Big Dick of Fairyland."
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-02-19 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Joan opens her mouth, and then promptly closes it. For once, she admonishes herself, think before you fucking talk.

Because, loathe as she is to admit it, there's honor in paying your dues. If you end up under someone's thumb because they saved your life, it's not the same as being someone else's chewtoy. She can relent, at least, to the logic of it.

And at least she knows not to dig around deeper about owing people. She doesn't want more of his sob story, from fear that she's goddamn empathize with him. Again.

"So who is in charge?" Someone who could keep Merle Dixon in line, is who. Someone smart, and strong, and fucking patient.
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-03-10 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
Joan scowls at him through the rear view mirror, not liking one bit the victorious expression on his fucking face. She isn't sure exactly what that means, only that it's definitely not good news for her.

Maybe this one isn't the rapist. Maybe it's his shithead friend. Or maybe they're cannibals. Maybe they just like to torture kids for kicks. There are all kinds of reasons he could want to drag her back to his weird little enclave. Fucking Woodbury. She hates how unassuming it sounds.

If-- when?-- they try to take her gun, she'll claw out their eyes.

"Shouldn't he have better shit to do? Or is he running low on teenagers to boss around with you gone so long?"

Of course, when she's scared, she bites. Christ. At least if she dies, she'll probably deserve it.
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[personal profile] poleaxe 2017-03-10 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
She gives him an unimpressed glare, her expression flat and annoyed. She wants to say something like, 'I'm not a little kid', except she's suddenly reminded of a scene in that David Bowie movie Luke liked, and it makes her want to bang her head into the window. This is all such a pointless, stupid, messy way to die. At least nobody in her family's alive to see it.

She keeps driving. "It'd make me feel better if you said something actually useful," she grumbles, "but then you'd probably be lying. How far are we?"

Might as well get her gruesome murder over with. Prepare for the worst, hope they don't take your gun.

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