"I didn't really plan to stop when--" should she say we or I? When they'd tried. They'd never gotten far enough for the awkward talk about logistics, doing in vitro. "I would have taken some time, of course."
A few months. Maybe a year, she could have imagined that, and then her mother could have helped, and she'd had a folder of research on daycares and programs and pre- kindergartens. All of it long discarded.
And Mulder would have kept working-- maybe with a new partner, maybe just waiting. Maybe he would have found a better fit. That's always been a danger, but no matter what happened, they would have stayed close.
"We never had to talk about it then-- what you would have wanted. I think I was afraid to ask-- that maybe you wouldn't want anything at all."
Needless to say, it's different now. William may not have been planned, but he was the outcome of a sea change in their relationship; a product of particular evolution.
"I don't know if they'd let us work together, if we married. Even if we don't-- I can't imagine no one would guess you're his father. But I hate the idea of giving everything up."
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A few months. Maybe a year, she could have imagined that, and then her mother could have helped, and she'd had a folder of research on daycares and programs and pre- kindergartens. All of it long discarded.
And Mulder would have kept working-- maybe with a new partner, maybe just waiting. Maybe he would have found a better fit. That's always been a danger, but no matter what happened, they would have stayed close.
"We never had to talk about it then-- what you would have wanted. I think I was afraid to ask-- that maybe you wouldn't want anything at all."
Needless to say, it's different now. William may not have been planned, but he was the outcome of a sea change in their relationship; a product of particular evolution.
"I don't know if they'd let us work together, if we married. Even if we don't-- I can't imagine no one would guess you're his father. But I hate the idea of giving everything up."